The Time Is Now

I have obviously been very lax in writing in my new blog here as I think it has been about a month and a half since I have written anything.  It isn't for lack of trying, I just haven't really had much to write about and my family has been extremely busy.  The busyness is normal. Three kids involved in things means mom is running everywhere. Mom involved in things means that life is just nuts. Time being nuts in our family is my normal. It doesn't bother me too much.

The not much to write about however is a different story.  My motivation in all things that I would want to report to you has been pretty much zilch. In a previous post (which you can read HERE), I discussed that I was going to start following what was essentially a macro-nutrient approach to eating. I had all the good intentions of starting this, I really did. Unfortunately as you probably know, intentions mean SQUAT if you don't have the motivation to back it up.  Part of me REALLY wanted to burn off the fat and the other part of me knew I was working really hard and just wanted to eat (and we aren't talking the good choices either!!).  Guess which part of the brain won? My motivation, my stamina, and my energy took a huge dive.  Now, I have classes on my schedule to teach, I have kids that have to be taken to their activities, I had VBS weeks that I had to work for.  I was busy.  Do you know what happens when you are super busy, trying to do it all, and you are feeding your body crap food? You hit a huge brick wall.

That point was last week. I was barely pushing through. Now, I have gotten pretty good over the years of putting on a motivated face and sucking it up and doing it anyway, but eventually even that will catch up with you.  Yesterday, I was almost in tears as I tried on some skirts that fit me just a couple of months ago and when I tried to put them on for church, they were too tight.  Now, I am NOWHERE near back where I started. Honestly, everything else fits me fine, but not being able to put those two skirts on was a HUGE wake up call.  All my hard work and I was back sliding.  I stood there and told myself NO.  No, Theresa. You are NOT going back to that point in your life. You are going to take CONTROL and you are in charge. YOU are the only one who can make the decisions needed to make better choices.

I also realized that not only was I making REALLY bad choices and decisions in my kitchen, but I have also been taking the biggest part of my life out of this journey. When I started, I prayed every morning for God to be with me and to help me stay motivated. I prayed that He would help me make good decisions that were the best for my body, my mind, my spirit, and my family. I prayed before, after, and during every single workout. I FELT Him with me because He was there and I was inviting Him to come along. I realized yesterday I have not been doing that.  Well, geesh, no wonder I have felt so alone and unmotivated in all this! I knew I had to go back to where I started. I had to do what worked for me before. I had to ask Him to come with me. Not for my own glory, but for HIS GLORY. This is His temple and I need His help to make and keep it strong. I had forgotten that.

So, I knew I needed to make a change.  And that is what I am going to do. You heard me. Obviously, I have said this before. But, today just feels different. Today my head is in the same place it was when I started this journey to be the best me that God put on this planet. Maybe it is coincidence that today is exactly 1 1/2 years to the day that I started this journey, but I do not think so. I don't believe in that much of a coincidence. January 6, 2014 was a huge turning point in my life and even though, I have been pretty stagnant lately, July 6, 2015 is going to be another turn.

I have this. My 36th birthday is August 12th. I plan on hitting that birthday in the absolute 100% best shape of my life.  I am going to know that I did everything possible to be the best me that God wants me to be.  If I seem a little obsessed between now and then, well, perhaps I will be. But, I know that this journey is between me and Him and I know that He has my back. This is one temple that will not be torn down, especially not by my own thoughts, words, or actions.

My prayer that I will say constantly is this:

"Jesus, help make me the woman YOU want me to be."

If and when you hear me say that, just know that I know I am not alone and that He is my assistant chef, my lifting spotter, and my coach. He is going to get me through. He knows what He wants me to be, and He is going to help me get there. Oh yeah, WE'VE got this.